Hello, its been soo long since i even posted anything on here, i been feeling miserable, as to my lot in life, and the frustrations that follow, as time and the hardship that i struggle to make a life of my own, and with that, i been wearing thin, my body hurts and is weaken from the work i do. just exhausted.

i want to lay in bed and not move just sleep or even not care about going to work or anything, i want to just stay home and read and write, but it seems i have to keep moving on, until i physically get damaged or even hurt my chances at doing something wonderful. i am tired, tired in a a sense of just wanted to not give a shit about what happens now. i want to do something special. but at this moment i am running to roadblocks, and mishaps, that make me wonder, if i am cursed! shit i pisses me off to know that when i set my mind to something, and i work hard at it, things out of my control fuck it all up!!! i cannot sit by and let this happen, i will find may path again. right now i am just exhausted from all the struggling.

if and when i do quit this job or something i will produce more on here, though i am not sure who will actually read them, and for those who do, bare with me, i want to keep writing

a Fucken Frustrated
Enigmatic STranger